New Year, Next Thoughts
axomoxoa
A nice quiet night out with a small group of friends, and friends of friends, makes a delightful evening.
Rather low key with the traditional black eyes peas (with sausage) for luck and cabbage (with far too much bacon) for money, a cornbread that was rather tasteless (rather an accomplishment for corn bread). Some pulled pork that had someone trying cinnamon has a key note (not my favorite).

The completely spectacular gray, and rainy last few weeks are marvelous for my mood. I may have no decent Winter of which to speak, at least I have overcast days and soothing patter of rain to bring a wonderful peace to the soul.

A small nasal cold has held on since around Thanksgiving. It became a bit tense last week when I felt too drained (perhaps unmotivated) to go to work. My throat felt raw and sore. Luckily, homeopathy in the house, keeps the worst at bay of the symptoms and cough drops are downed like candy.

It's the start of something special and new, as it is, every year. What surprises there will be.

Another Consideration
axomoxoa
I believe a strong note of irony is in play that my life as someone that used an online journal began at this humble site, ever so many years ago, that I return here, largely, because the places I preferred to reside have gone by the wayside.
I never really enjoyed the platform LJ uses. Certainly, I lack the knowledge of the full potential. For me, the ease of use was above all else.

I found those places. They comforted me when I needed it. Time and circumstances kept me away for months.
Returning here to see no one I knew still using an online journal, at least here. The bustling, complex community I assume is now taken over by the more popular social sites that focus on simple, punchy sentences and the ability to post links to other pages online that are of interest.
I have certainly found amusement at MySpace even if my computer screamed at the load of images and sounds. I spent a few hours looking at FaceBook more because my friends shared information they wanted me to see.
Otherwise, I prefer a nice quiet corner that I can secure my thoughts for a while.
I definitely need that right now. I delightfully notice the chances in my thinking. What a gift it is to be able to look back years later to see the trail of breadcrumbs to where my mind is today.
Recently finding a journal from 1996 proved the point. Reading a few pages spoke almost exactly to my present thoughts. Nearly 20 years and the same struggles surround me, yet, now, I can face them and know the name of this confusion.

All things depend upon whether or not I will be able to resurrect those beloved online journals. SO many years held in those virtual pages that I never considered how to back-up.

Up For Air
axomoxoa
The time flies with the holidays. The days blur with a new discovery.

I seek for a Halloween custom, and barely slipping into October and I have a new hobby. One I would never and could never have even imagined. All the while, holding a link to my past long forgotten yet filled with layers of memory once I dusted off the reminiscence.

My paternal grandmother crafted. Around the house were kilns, quilting frames, potter's wheels, looms, spinning wheels, sewing machines, while needles and pins imitating a porcupine atop a tomato remained stalwart at her side.
In her nearly 90 years, only Providence knows what else she pursued.
She had several small looms and weaving looms, along with a plethora of oddities and curiosities, that I amused myself with while visiting her.

I, as the enthusiastic Whovian I am, decided the time arrived to dress as a character from the show. One of my most beloved is the 4th Doctor and, I believe, a rather easy one to produce. The emblematic scarf enough to portray him. Approximate the color scheme and one has a costume!

...if I don't get distracted with teh wonderful cold and do something else.

...And With the Angels and Archangels, We Sing....
axomoxoa
Obfuscating PiffleCollapse )

"What, me worry?"
axomoxoa
Ish Kabibble, because it's so much fun to say! and it's a meme so t'ain't all that specialCollapse )

Random Assortment
axomoxoa
It seems while recovering from a mystery illness, there is far too much time to absorb and ponder haphazard facts that have filtered through the ears and eyes into the little gray cells.




baby boom..4.32 million-baby tally for 2007, more than the 4.30 million babies born in 1957 (the height of the Baby Boom)demographer Arthur Nelson attributes the 2007 numbers to a "perfect storm" of factors: more immigrants having children, professional women who delayed childbearing until their 40s, and larger numbers of women in their 20s and 30s in the population, keeping the fertility rate high. The average number of births per woman was 2.1 in 2006, the highest since 1971.

change in scrabble...new words added as acceptable in the official dictionary, 'za', 'qi' and 'zzz'. In reaction to creating more words with the higher point tiles, some suggest altering the rules to accommodate the fact there are now more words available to create. http://online.wsj.com/article/SB123731266862258869.html?mod=yhoofront#project%3DSCRABBLE_0903%26articleTabs%3Dinteractive


dog breeding...watching a show describing various breeds and they hit the English Bulldog and French Bulldog. According to the program, these breeds are so top-heavy they are unable to breed naturally and the female's hips so small she cannot deliver naturally. Now, aren't breeders supposed to improve the breed? How does breeding the dog to the point that they are no longer capable of natural reproduction an improvement?! Don't even get me started about brachycephalic (flat faced) dogs. I consider it cruelty.


alien architects...flipping through channels I struck upon a passionate supporter of alien architects for the great pyramids and monuments found around the world. Personally, I am clueless how these were created, yet, I like to give my ancestors the benefit of attributing to them intellect enough to do it. The "computer" found off the Greek coast or the "Baghdad battery" are examples in my mind that prove the ingenuity of the ancients. I feel insulted for the forerunners. It would seem if a problem is created the moderns cannot solve, there are those that leap to the alien solution.
It still seems to stun researchers that they had technology and possessed ingenuity. Hell, I remain impressed the Hanging Gardens existed and at the sheer size of the pyramids, no matter what their purpose might be.

Gumball colours
axomoxoa


Your Thinking is Abstract and Sequential



You like to do research and collect lots of information.

The more facts you have, the easier it is for you to learn.



You need to figure things out for yourself and consider all possibilities.

You tend to become an expert in the subjects that you study.



It's difficult for you to work with people who know less than you do.

You aren't a very patient teacher, and you don't like convincing people that you're right.


Open Faced
axomoxoa
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http://kevan.org/johari?name=axomoxoa


"The unexamined life is not worth living," is an important motto. I try to live by it and accept all critiques. I'm not as good with accepting compliments but I thought I should be fair and have both listed.

To the one from whom I took this, you are one of the most brave and bold people I know. I truly, deeply admire you for that.

By Request
axomoxoa
1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they :
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school:
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

Highlanders are Good for the Health
axomoxoa
Today is the day I finally post what's been nagging me for months now, in abbreviated form:

What am I doing wrong with people that they avoid me?

I do my best to express I'd like to get to know them. I strive to give them their space and privacy. I work hard at showing I do care what's going on in their lives, or I wouldn't even ask.

Yet, the very ones I want to be closer to, withdraw.

This not being some spew of repressed concern, ambiguously stating what I can't say to them.
Nay, I've asked them all. They tell me, 'oh, nothing, it's fine'. Then I don't hear from them for weeks or months. If I speak to them, I'm usually just ignored. I'd rather people have the courtesy to say what they are feeling. Don't claim you're tired or busy to shoo me away. TELL ME! End everyone's annoyance.

Please, for the love of all you hold sacred, just puts your balls out on the table and say if you don't like me, if you feel we are compatible as friends, that you feel I'm a freak...whatever, just tell me! I will nod, thank you for your honesty and not bother you again, publically or privately.

This is one thing from my childhood I could never understand. Why tell people pretty lies to make them feel better. Tell them the gut wrenching truth. They'll get over it. If they don't, then fuck 'em, you were honest and your conscious is clean for not being a white liar.

That is all.

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